Luke 15:11-32

O' God,

I have been absolutely ignorant towards your warnings and oblivious to your convictions. To the point where they even seem far from me to care. Once again I find myself finding out first hand what life is like without You, and I find myself falling back into Your arms with tears of regret. When will I learn?
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If it weren't for God's mercy upon me I would be long forgotten by now. I have never understood grace better than I do now, and yet I have never been farther away from understanding it, because I'd have given up on me along time ago. For those of you who haven't given up on me, you have my deepest gratitude. Although I would love to give you better news, I'm afraid I was wrong. I couldn't have been more incorrect. Would I have listened, though? Probably not.

I am inconsistent.

Somehow I find it easier to tackle larger objectives in my life that requires godly wisdom and prayer. Whether it's a job change or something crazy such as breaking down in the middle of no-where, no phone connection or any other way to contact any one. To me, that's a no brainer. But when it comes to daily walking with God like reading scripture every day or praying for someone, or even something as simple as being at church every Sunday and Wednesday; counting on me wouldn't be the wisest choice.

I acknowledge this as a problem in my life I need to work on.

It's time; yet again; to be found In Christ Jesus. After hitting what seemed to be "Rock Bottom" in my life it seems the only way to look is up. Lord willing, I will rebuild my credibility as a Christian and maybe one day help others to avoid making the stupid decisions I have made.