His Creation; my desire.

Tell me.. what makes a lake beautiful? Why is it that we stand in awe of a big body of water? Or even a little pond? While a little pond or creek we find that underneath is a lot of mud and muck.
Is it.. the amount of movies that we see that implants an idea in our head that tells us this is a beautiful thing or that a sunset is a beautiful thing?
Is it the difference in land as one step is on gravel then the next your falling into water?
Is it the risk that you'll fall in?

.. Or is it God? That made beautiful things in this world..and just as he puts in every one of us a conscious that there's a higher power or how we already find moral values of right and wrong before it's taught to us? Is it God that put the idea in our heads that this earth is given to us as a temporary home.. But also as a place to explore!
Meant for us to see.
Meant for us to find.
Meant for us to SUBDUE.

A dragon isn't there to look pretty. It's there to show the fierceness of this world. Maybe even to defeat. Like a formation of the Blue Angels (United States Flight squadron) flying by your window, its' roar is like the thunderous clouds of a thousand trumpets next to you. It's powerful.
Just as a waterfall deep in the forest is meant to be seen.

I want to explore the world God has given to us. I want to capture it and share it to those like-minded who get joy from simply gazing at the stars at night and standing in awe of God's amazing creations.

Oh courage, where art thou?

You know you're starting to hit the bottom of the barrell when you find that the darkness doesn't scare you anymore. Not out of courage where your motivation or will is stronger than fear, but the fact that you're no longer scared of the darkness because you're a part of it.

Recovery.

Today I went to church for the first time in about a month. I was on medical leave from work for a few weeks but I feel like I didn't make Jesus a priority throughout the entire ordeal. I used it as an excuse to sit back and procrastinate about every thing that I was doing. Everything that I had to do. Every thing that needed to be done. I slowly started to feel like I was in quicksand. Every day I put things off I felt like I was digging even deeper into my little hole. The further I ran away from God the more guilty I felt. The further I ran away from the light the easier it was to stay there, even though the whole time in the back of my mind I knew.. I knew I needed to face the music.

Oh courage.. where art thou?

I don't know what's up ahead of me tomorrow or even in the next hour. What I do know is.. now that I'm climbing out of this whole I've dug for myself... I'm starting to see every thing a little different. For example today at work.. every thing was just so beautiful to me. The grass, the sky, the birds. The pond, every thing in my eyes sight just had an incredible flavor to it that I wanted to take a picture of it all. As I walked through the grass that I've walked through hundreds of times I felt my soul finally at peace. I felt comfort. I felt loved. Like an overflowing waterfall above me just pouring into me;. Overwelmed with peace.

There will be a day with no more tears. No more pain, no more fear. There will be a day where I'll see Jesus face to face and there will be no more hiding.

Help me O Lord, to fall in love with you once again. To renew my soul and take back the ground I've given to satan. Renew my heart and renew my mind. I no longer wish to desire things of my own but things of you.

One thing I have noticed about some blogs I read. They say little about themselves and more about Jesus. I really appreciate that in a person's character. That it's not about them.. it's about Him. I'm trying to learn this myself and most of my life it's been all about me, entertainment and more of me. Thank you to those who dedicate these blogs to Him, and not themselves. Your words mean a lot more to some people than you may realize.